But once in a while, it feels really good to let your hair down and let your natural personality out to play. This is why I'm sooooo thankful to the UPM CAMP Society of Occupational Therapy Majors for a rad General Assembly today! It was the kind of event where you can relax and just... be.
I feel like I've started to lose touch with myself ever since I've started my internship. I think I've become too focused on my new role as an OT intern that I've somehow taken for granted the fact that being an OT intern is not my end-all and be-all. Today, I felt what it was like to be a friend again... to be part of a social group that goes beyond brainstorming for treatment sessions or sharing admin duties. I miss my friends. It's just not the same not having them by my side. Three long, grueling years in UP formed bonds that cannot easily be broken by mountains of paperworks or time apart. When I'm with them, I feel like I can always be plain, old me without fear of being graded or judged. They make me comfortable enough to shove Teacher Gee to the background for a while and let good ol' Guia take the spotlight.
I miss laughing so hard your stomach hurts.
I miss talking to friends that it seems you won't ever run out of topics to talk about.
I miss pigging out with people who shove just as much food in their mouths as you do in yours.
Because, man, you don't experience that everyday in the clinics.
Days like today make all the stressful days worth it knowing that at the end of this long journey, I'll be standing on a stage, diploma in hand, with these same faces, ready to race headlong into the next chapter in our lives.
Today reminded me that all these bad days only serve to make the good ones feel even better. Even after all the exhaustion and the stress, it really felt good to spend time with people you care about.
We may not have clinic duties today, but I did learn something valuable: LEARN TO LET GO. Let go of your inhibitions every once in a while. A little fun never hurt anybody.
Live a little and give yourself time to just be you. Nothing is worth losing yourself. Sure, you can be the best goddamn OT there ever was, but what's the point if you start to lose yourself along the way. So tonight, I'm letting go. I'm not Teacher Gee tonight. I'm taking this time to do things that I like for a change. I'm making time for myself. I deserve it.